Thursday, April 28, 2005

3 Months...

Happy 3rd monthsary... I love you more each day...

Three months ago I cried fearing I won't be seeing you again...

Three months ago you wipe away those tears when you told me you love me...

Three months ago we became one...

It's been three months and we're still holding on...

It's been three months and we're still one...

It's been three months and more to go...

Monday, April 25, 2005

25 on the 25th of April 2005

It's my birthday!!! Well this is one of the saddest birthday I've ever had. Being alone in a cold place and all that. Sigh. Anyways, thanks to all who greeted me. It's really nice for you to greet me.

I'm kinda happy also because I got to spent my birthday from 12 midnight up to 6am with you. Love you so much!!!

Tuesday, April 19, 2005

German Cardinal Becomes Pope Benedict XVI

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Joseph Ratzinger, a Hard-Line German Cardinal, Is Elected Pope and Takes the Name Benedict XVI

By VICTOR L. SIMPSON Associated Press Writer

VATICAN CITY Apr 19, 2005 — With unusual speed and little surprise, Cardinal Joseph Ratzinger of Germany became Pope Benedict XVI on Tuesday, a 78-year-old transitional leader who promises to enforce strictly conservative policies for the world's Roman Catholics.

Appearing on St. Peter's Basilica balcony as dusk fell, a red cape over his new white robes, the white-haired Ratzinger called himself "a simple, humble worker."

The crowd responded to the 265th pope by waving flags and chanting "Benedict! Benedict!"

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Monday, April 18, 2005

Bottom of the wheel

I have been depressed for the past few weeks because of the events that had happened to me that turn my life upside down. I'm having hard time to accept things as they are. Needless to say that I am in a new place and a new environment that I used to blend and handle well in the past. I refuse to accept change and I deny that time is really changing.

Way back in Manila, I am perfectly still and loving every second of the day even if I just have to stay home all day and just read books that I usually borrowed from a friend. Everything for me seemed so normal even if I don't have to work cause I do have some savings from the previous job that I had. I even don't have to worry if I have something left to eat for the next couple of days to come. I am contended. I am happy. I am in love.

Like every story, like every events, and like everyone else, comes a twist. It usually happens when you don't expect it the most. When you are vulnerable and seemed so relax. It catches you off guard. It makes you think. It makes you crazy. And I hate it.

Right now I can't say that whatever I'm doing to cope up with it helps. I can't say that I'll be able to survive this. But I am holding on. I refuse to give up. It's so damn hard hard and it hurts me even more. The more I try to accept and fight it, the harder it gets. Oh help me God.

If things get worst, I pray that I will still be able to stand with my own two feet. Should I fall and shattered into dust, I don't expect that someone would pick me up but I just hope that I'll be able to rise above it all.

Thank you for calling me last night. I really had a great time talking with you. I love you even more. Thanks for loving me back.

Tuesday, April 12, 2005

Make love to me

Let the tree sway back and forth
As the wind sings its lullaby
Carrying the tune that awakes the sleepy

Let the leaves collect the dew from the morning mist
As it falls down slowly to the ground like kisses of eternal promises
Washing away all the worries from the day before

Let the morning light embrace everything it touches
As they all welcome it like arms of a lost child
Clearing away all the inhibitions and fears

Let the roots burried itself into the ground
As the earth open it's arms to let them through
Burrying deep, deeper into it's core

Let them become one secretly before our eyes
As the night and darkness bear witness to their union
Owning each other like they are one

Let the river flow through where the roots pass
As it quenches the thirst of a longing soul
Exploding like fireworks illuminating the night skies to celebrate

Let the bliss firms the bond
As the seed becomes the hope for what tomorrow brings
Promising that they would never part, always one

Monday, April 11, 2005


Tell me that you love me
Kahit ito'y kunwari lang
Feed me with those promises
Kahit hindi mo man ito matutupad
Empty my loneliness
Kahit iba nasa isip mo
Bring me to life
Kahit panandalian lang
Show me that you care
Kahit ito'y pagpapanggap lamang
Own me with all your heart
Kahit ngayon lang

This for a friend of who found and lost love. Who give and never think twice. Who beg for the love to come back even for just one night - even if it means the last.

Hope that you could move on and find the one who deserves your love and who would love you back.

Sunday, April 10, 2005

Noong Isang Lingo

Mainit Malungkot Masakit
Makita Malayo Malungkot
Mabilis Malayo Mag-aantay
Mainit Malamig Mabilis
Mag-isa Mag-aantay Malungkot
Madali Malayo Mabilis
Makita Mag-uusap Masakit
Masakit Makita Malungkot
Masaya Mag-isa Mabilis
Mag-uusap Maghahanap Magkasama
Masaya Malungkot Magmamahal
Magkasama Mainit Masaya
Masaya Malamig Mainit
Magkasama Matagal Mainit
Maglalakbay Maiiwan Malungkot
Magtatagal Malalakbay Mag-isa
Magkasama Magmamahal Magkalayo

Tuesday, April 05, 2005

So how's the weather?

I finally decided to go to Baguio for the 5 month apprenticeship program. Before I went to the terminal I visited first a friend of mine and we talked for a while then he accompanied me to the bus terminal. I even send SMS to some of my friends and most of them replied sending their regards and goodluck wishes. Oh by the way, I even dropped by my former office, but the guard won't allow me to bid my teamates goodbye. Sigh. I was so sad as I am not ready to leave all the people that became my family who supported me and who are always there for me through ups and downs. And I do appreciate them for that.

I arrived at Baguio about 11am in the morning. I send an SMS to a friend of mine asking him what's the address of the inn that he stayed when he first went to the city. Then I rode a cab to send me to the said inn. I am not excited nor delighted to go to Baguio that's why I felt so alone. Unlike my first trips to other places which I am so ecstatic to explore. This time it's different. It's as if I am being punish for sins that I am not even aware of. Most of my friends, who communicated with me through SMS, e-mails and blogs, told me that it's alright and in couple of days I won't feel that sad anymore. Sana nga.

I tried to take a nap for a while because I'm so tired from the travel. When I woke I still felt so alone and so small so I decided to take a walk. It was so cold outside and all you can see are unfamiliar faces busying themselves with things they do. I tried so hard to smile but it seems that it was so hard. I continued walking through the Session Road still looking at all the busy people hurrying here and there. Then I took Mabini Street to take me to the Burnham Park. Still I didn't feel alright so I decided to go back to the inn.

By the entrance I saw a ledge where I can sit on so I just sitted there feeling the cold wind brushed through my face reminding me that I am no longer in Manila. That I am in a new place all by myself. I tried to think of some of the happy moments that I have had. The Komikero meetings, the so-called mall tours with my Convergys and College friends, the secret dates and stolen moments, the jokes out of thin air, the bar hopping with strangers, the free drinks and all that. Those were the days. Then I noticed that I'm smiling. Somehow the loneliness seemed to fade away for a moment. Then I'm back to reality. I'm back to being sad.

Then Andy texted me and he arrived a minute later. We went to SM Baguio to let time fly by. Then we bid goodbye and I'm back to the inn by myself. I texted some of my friends and some replied. I am very much thankful to those who replied. And I do appreciate Philip (15 mins) and Mike's (55 mins) effort to call me and talked to me over the phone just to say hi and make sure that I'm OK. Then by 2am I tried to sleep to prepare myself for the next day.

Monday, April 04, 2005

I'll Miss You All

These are the people whom I'm going to miss when I go to Baguio.

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The Komikeros, College Batchmates, Panasonic and Convergys Officemates and friends. Sorry I don't have pictures of some of my friends so heto na lang muna. Pagpasensyahan na lang hehehe.

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Sunday, April 03, 2005

Texas Instruments

I'll be starting my apprenticeship program at Texas Instruments (TI) in Baguio City on the 6th of April. So I might not be seeing you guys for quite sometime. I just can't drop this opportunity that TI is giving me because this will surely help me with my career as an engineer. I hope everything will be just fine. Just try to text me from time to time so that I won't get lonely. Ang lamig pa naman doon.