Living The Dream

I am always envious of those who chase and live their dreams. They inspire me. They make it look so easy that I want to chase and live mine too. But life has its way of getting in my way and the journey seems a lot harder that I thought it would be. But I am still trying though, I might set it back for a while, or delay it a bit but I really hope to get there someday.

Portrait Photography

I think taking portrait shots is a very personal experience. You need to love the subject, even for a moment, in order to see and bring out the best out of the person. You need to make them feel that emotion. Give all the attention they (subject) needed. If the subject and the photographer connect that’s where the magic starts – that’s when you get the shot.

I Won't Give Up

I Won't Give Up by Jason Mraz

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When I look into your eyes
It's like watching the night sky
Or a beautiful sunrise
There's so much they hold
And just like them old stars
I see that you've come so far
To be right where you are
How old is your soul?

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up

And when you're needing your space
To do some navigating
I'll be here patiently waiting
To see what you find

'Cause even the stars they burn
Some even fall to the earth
We've got a lot to learn
God knows we're worth it
No, I won't give up

I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily
I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make
Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use
The tools and gifts we got yeah, we got a lot at stake
And in the end, you're still my friend at least we did intend
For us to work we didn't break, we didn't burn
We had to learn how to bend without the world caving in
I had to learn what I've got, and what I'm not
And who I am

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up
Still looking up.

I won't give up on us (no I'm not giving up)
God knows I'm tough, he knows (I am tough, I am loved)
We've got a lot to learn (we're alive, we are loved)
God knows we're worth it (and we're worth it)

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up

A day without you

A year without Rain by Selena Gomes and The Scene

Oooooh
Can you feel me when I think about you?
With every breath I take
Every minute, no matter what I do
My world is an empty place

Like I've been wondering the desert
For a thousand days
Don't know if it's a mirage
But I always see your face, baby

I'm missing you so much
Can't help it, I'm in love
A day without you is like a year without rain
I need you by my side
Don't know how I'll survive
A day without you is like a year without rain
Ooh, woooaaahh woaahh

The stars are burning
I hear your voice in my mind
Can't you hear me calling
My heart is yearning
Like the ocean that's running dry
Catch me I'm falling

It's like the ground is crumbling underneath my feet
(Won't you save me)
There's gonna be a monsoon
When you get back to me
Oh, baby

I'm missing you so much
Can't help it, I'm in love
A day without you is like a year without rain
I need you by my side
Don't know how I'll survive
A day without you is like a year without rain
Ooh, woooaaahh woaahh

So let this drought come to an end
And make this desert flower again
I'm so glad you found me
Stick around me
Baby, baby, baby, oh
It's a world of wonder with you in my life
So hurry, baby
Don't waste no more time
And I need you here
 can't explain
But day without you is like a year without rain
Ooh

I'm missing you so much
Can't help it, I'm in love
A day without you is like a year without rain
I need you by my side
Don't know how I'll survive
A day without you is like a year without rain
Ooh, woooaaahh woaahh

Is it over yet?

Cry by Kelly Clarkson Performed by Lea Michele (Glee)

If anyone asks,
I'll tell them we both just moved on
When people all stare
I'll pretend that I don't hear them talk
Whenever I see you,
I'll swallow my pride
and bite my tongue
Pretend I'm okay with it all
Act like there's nothing wrong

Is it over yet?
Can I open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it gets?
Is this what it feels like to really cry?
Cry

If anyone asks,
I'll tell them we just grew apart
Yeah what do I care
If they believe me or not
Whenever I feel
Your memory is breaking my heart
I'll pretend I'm okay with it all
Act like there's nothing wrong

Is it over yet?
Can I open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it gets?
Is this what it feels like to really cry?
Cry

I'm talking in circles
I'm lying, they know it
Why won't this just all go away

Is it over yet?
Can I open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it gets?
Is this what it feels like to really cry?
Cry
Cry

Behind Your Light

I’m facing issues thicker than the yellow pages

Occupying my mind results to procrastination

Cannot move on can not step forward

Standing still

Hear me out

Here is my plea

I am about to give up

The unworthy fight

But I choose to be in the dark

Behind your light

The moon watches behind the cloudy night

Stars hide as shadows filling in every corner

In total darkness I must belong

I still remain

Hear me out

Here is my plea

I am about to give up

The unworthy fight

But I choose to be in the dark

Behind your light

Shouting in silence in these four walls

No one to hear my cries

Lock within the cells you created

Here you imprisoned me

Hear me out

Here is my plea

I am about to give up

The unworthy fight

But I choose to be in the dark

Behind your light

Drowning in tears my eyes refuse to stop

Bitter and salty it taste

Tasting the pain over

And over again

Hear me out

Here is my plea

I am about to give up

The unworthy fight

But I choose to be in the dark

Behind your light

You Didn't Have To Cut Me Off

Somebody That I Used To Know by Goyte Performed by Glee Casts

now and then i think of when we were together
like when you said you felt so happy you could die
i told myself that you were right for me
but felt so lonely in your company
but that was love and it's an ache i still remember

you can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness
like resignation to the end
always the end
so when we found that we could not make sense
well you said that we would still be friends
but i'll admit that i was glad that it was over

but you didn't have to cut me off
make out like it never happened
and that we were nothing
and i don't even need your love
but you treat me like a stranger
and that feels so rough
no you didn't have to stoop so low
have your friends collect your records
and then change your number
i guess that i don't need that though
now you're just somebody that i used to know
now you're just somebody that i used to know
now you're just somebody that i used to know

now and then i think of all the times you screwed me over
but had me believing it was always something that i'd done
but i don't wanna live that way
reading into every word you say
you said that you could let it go
and i wouldn't catch you hung up on somebody that you used to know

but you didn't have to cut me off
make out like it never happened
and that we were nothing
and i don't even need your love
but you treat me like a stranger and that feels so rough
no you didn't have to stoop so low
have your friends collect your records
and then change your number
i guess that i don't need that though
now you're just somebody that i used to know

somebody
i used to know
now you're just somebody that i used to know
somebody
i used to know
now you're just somebody that i used to know
i used to know
that i used to know
i used to know
somebody

The Longing

in the late hours of the night

here i sit and wonder

do you still think of me

and the memories we once shared

in the late hours of the night

here i sit and wonder

do you still think of me

and remember the warmth of my kisses and embrace

in the late hours of the night

here i sit and wonder

do you still think of me

and the many feelings you felt when you're with me

in the late hours of the night

here i sit and wonder

do you still think of me

and wonder what if you give us another chance

Clueless

I absolutely hate it when i don't have a f*cking clue what's happening with you.

Thoughts For Today 04212012

I know deep within my heart that what happened was supposed to be for the best but I didn't see it coming. I didn't expect it to be this soon. Life indeed is surprising. Life got me bad this time.

Tears Still Flowing

It is so hot outside but not enough to keep my tears from flowing.

Heartless

The heart breaks into million pieces.
Then the million pieces are breaking again a million times more.
The pieces of once a heart settles like dust in the open air.
The wind can’t carry the sorrow the heart carries.
The tides too can’t wash the longing the heart bears.
The rising and setting of the sun will neither help nor the ever-changing seasons.
The heart knows all too well what has been never will be again.

Note To Self 04/17/2012

There you go again with a sad eye
Don’t be sad; don’t be…

You thought it might help but it didn’t
It backfired instead
It happens; sh*t happens…

Now you are hurt beyond repair
Are you going to be ok?
In time maybe
That day will come; in time…

I still see hope in your eyes
You just have to try harder
Swallow your pride and admit your fault
Maybe, just maybe you’ll win
I hope you will; you will…

There you go again so unsure of yourself
You have what it takes
Have faith in yourself
You did it once
You’ll make it again
Don’t give up; just don’t…