Grip

don't pull my feet in the abyss of pain

let me breath under your embrace

you're all over me

i'm drowning

lead me out in this labyrinth you surrounds me

i’m lost within your arms

confusion consuming me fast

it’s blinding

tired playing in our secret garden

need space outside your safe place

bitterness eating me inside out

i’m hurting

help me find the key to myself

i’ve gone astray within you

no longer know myself

i’m failing

set these chains free it’s hurting me

slowly burning me, dimming my light

set me free, let me live

i’m dying

Happy Birthday To Me

I thank God for giving me so much blessing and for sticking with me all throughout.

I thank my family for showing me unconditional love no matter what.

I thank my friends who remains royal.

I thank all the people for giving me so much opportunity to be able to express myself and not judging me by my faults.

I thank all my online peers for giving me extra life in cyberspace, I really do appreciate it all.

I thank everyone and I am so much to be able to live and enjoy life to fullest.

I thank all the peple who make a difference by spreading love not hate.

9 Words Women Use

Received thie e-mail from Chas and just would like to share:

1. Fine: This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up.


2. Five Minutes: If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.


3. Nothing: This is the calm before the storm. This means something, and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in fine.


4. Go Ahead: This is a dare, not permission. Don't Do It!


5. Loud Sigh: This is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about nothing. (Refer back to #3 for the meaning of nothing.)

6. That's Okay: This is one of the most dangerous statements a women can make to a man. That's okay means she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.

7. Thanks: A woman is thanking you, do not question, or Faint. Just say you're welcome.

8. Whatever: Is a women's way of saying f@Ik YOU!

9. Don't worry about it, I got it: Another dangerous statement, meaning this is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but is now doing it herself. This will later result in a man asking 'What's wrong?' For the woman's response refer to #3.

How About Me

Help me get rid of this hate boiling deep down inside of me. It's consumingme faster than paper under fire. I've been keeping it all for eternity but I can almost feel myself errupting any moment now. Things has gone from bad to worst. I'm facing it like a knight without sword. How can I overcome it when I'm completely not in control. What I can do is pretend everythings fine. But it's not and never will be. I've been hurt and still hurting, all the time. Been betrayed by people that matter most to me. Does anyone even care what I think, or what I feel? I think not, even a little.

I'm not a child anymore so there's no reason for me to get emo but there is only this much that I can take. Never enough. Whatever I do is never really enough.

No one's perfect so everyone makes mistakes. Explaining oneself is never trying to excuse myself from commiting that mistake. But if you only listen you'll know why it happened and maybe undestand but never did. Not in a moment. How come people try to find fault in me when they did something wrong. Are they trying to deviate the real issue so they could hide from it? Then why me. Just accept the fact that we all make mistakes.

Sigh...

Claire Unabia

I just found out through the internet that the half-Filipina model Claire Unabia from America's Next Top Model Cycle 10 was already eliminated. I really thought Claire's going to win the competition. She came out really strong and won 5 consecutive "cover girl of the week" and already won 2 weekly challenges. Well I do hope she's going to make it big in the modeling industry, after all, she does have what it takes to be a top model.

Here are some photos of her (disclaimer: All photos are owned by ANTM):

How To Multiply Thy Self

Eversince I posted that photo of multiple me, a lot have been asking how I did it. To answer all the questions all at once, here are the simple steps on how to do it:

1. Set your camera and lens to manual;
2. Take a couple of shots, placing yourself at different location. Make sure that the camera settings and location remains the same on all photos;
3. Open all photos in Photoshop;
4. Choose photo that would serve as your background;
5. Drag another photo (make sure you press shift key while dragging to align two photos together) to the first photo that would serve as the background;
6. Then after dragging the second photo into the first photo, the second photo should be on another layer on top of the first photo;
7. Add layer mask on the second photo;
8. Choose brush, choose color black (if your mask is white, otherwise if mask is black), paint on the second layer on the part where yourself is located on the backgroud photo;
9. Paint slowly and you'll notice that you can slowly see your photo appearing from the background photo even if you are painting on the second layer. Finish painting until you see two of you on the photo at different locations;
10. Click ctrl-E to merge the two photos;
11. Then drag the third photo and repeat the steps (from masking to merging);
12. Repeat steps to the rest of the photos. Finish.

Hope this workflow helps...