Too Early

Thought it is the 31st today

Changed the settings of my wrist watch

Must be so excited for the coming "New Year Celebration"

Hehehe

Must reserve my excitement for the actual date

Just have to express all these mix emotions

Later when the time arrives

Hehehe

Must admit that I am a bit disappointed

Would be spending the New Year's Eve receiving calls

In the station reserve just for me

Sigh

Just hope that calls won't be pouring in

Like fireworks that welcomes

The birth of a New Year

Sigh

On A High

felt dizzy, world's turnin' upside down

been like this, not quite

drowned in the endless pit of your being

in one with your soul, oh help me

felt nothing, damn lovin' this

never letting go, craving

i'm lost, forever gone

what took me so long, i'm with you

felt heaven, i'm in hell

nothing to return to, no going back

i see you, light

what took you so long, we're one

*bros and cousins ko napuyat sa kalalaro...

Christmas Afterall

I thought I won't be spending Christmas home, well I was wrong. It just happen that my mom was able to provide me a round trip ticket. I was so ecstatic upon hearing the news. I am so excited to go home to celebrate the holidays with my family back in the province.

There's more! Earlier today my former teammate May, who was transferred to different team now, wanted to exchange her day offs next week with mine. Next week, my day offs fall on the 30th and 31st of December and I would be exchanging it with her ( 26th and 27th of December). Therefore, I would spending approximately 5 days at home during the Holidays. This is good news, right? And I couldn't possibly ask for more.

Advanced merry Christmas to all!!!

*Pic taken at the Pan Pacific Hotel lobby...

Almost Over You

by Sheena Easton

I saw an old friend of our's today

She asked about you, i didn't quite know what to say

heard youv'e been making the rounds 'round here

while I've been trying to make tears disapear

Chorus:

Now Im almost over you

I've almost shook these blues

so when you come back around

after painting the town

you'll see im almost over you...

you're such a sly one with a cold cold heart

maybe leavin came easy, but it tore me apart

time heals all wounds they say and I should know

coz it seems like forever,

but im letting you go

(chorus)

I can forgive you and soon I'll forget all my shattered dreams

although you left me with nothing to show

but all misery

( chorus )

when you come back around, after painting the town,

you'll see im almost over you...

Christmas Party!!!

I was not able to attend the Christmas Party because I have work. Na miss ko na naman ang isa sa mga important activity ng grupo. Ganito na lang lagi, lagi na lang ako. Sa meeting ako, sa Oktober fest ako, pati sa Party ako. Ako, ako, ako...

Shadow

I reach for the highest star to be with you

Yet you're not there

Even dive the deepest pit to save you

Yet you don 't care

The past won't let us be and it's hurting me

You can't let go

Even if no future for you and the past

You still hold on

Now the past is back and yet not free

You're embracing it and ignoring me

Leaving no future for the two of us

Until when I can hold on

Christmas?!

Christmas season is in the air, so they say. Everyone's busy buying gifts, designing their houses with all sorts of Christmas decorations and busy preparing on what food to put on their table. How come I can't feel it? How come the day becomes closer the lonelier I get. How come I am not the feeling the Chrismas spirit?

One great factor that makes me no longer looking forward to Christmas day this season is the fact that I can't be with my family during the said day. That day would be the 1st day that I can't be with them. I can't help to think what's the reason why I am letting this to happen. I just can't believe that I am letting this to happen. I've been feeling low for quite some time now. I don't want to discuss the said day anymore.

When everyone else's celebrating Christmas, those of us who are working in call centers would be taking calls. Patiently assisting customers who have been having trouble with their internet connections or the like. We will be giving them our services in exchange of the salary that we would be getting from assisting them. As much as I'd like to think otherwise, I feel sorry for all of us. Leaving our family behind on this "Special Day" serving customers that we don't know miles and miles away. Yes, even if most of the times they are ungrateful. This is the scenario. This is the reason why I feel so lonely - isolated.

When our team leader gave us our schedule for the week that Christmas day falls, it was already too late for me to by my two-way ticket home because all the trips have been filled up. My day offs would be on the 23rd and 24th of December and that days would be enough for me to celebrate Christmas with my family. The sad thing is that it was all too late. Should I had known the schedule earlier, I would be able to buy tickets - to be with my family on Christ's birthday. It was too late.

Christmas is on the air. I wish I could feel it. I wish I could just breath it even for a day. As much as I'd like to keep these teardrops from falling I just can't. So I let them flow from my eyes until it drops to the earth and be forever lost.

Praning

Me nagtxt... nagreply ako... d ata nagus2han reply ko... d na nagtxt... nagmiss call ng 3 beses... ala pa din... cguro galit na... is it over... sana hindi... naiiyak na ako... ang lungkot ko na... pumunta ako ng toilet baka kase makita nila pumatak mga luha ko... mayamay nagreply na... nagre-request ng tawag ko... tumawag ako... naka silent lang pla phone nya kaya d nya narinig... masaya na naman ako... matutuwa... praning lang pla ako...

Komikero at last...

Last Sunday (11/28/04) I was able to attend the Komikero meeting after how many months of absence. It's really nice to see and exchange infos with the members of the club. It's even nicer to know that we have four new members who joined the club. I'm glad that Gerry is so busy with his projects. I finally saw the artworks of Jonas for the Siglo project. It's confirmed that Johnny is going to Mindanao for the job assignment in Makilala. Jac is joining ABS-CBN. Rod is not ok with his current job. Raipo finally released his Indie ('97). Gerald calling Jac achi? Geoff is considering call center for a job. Sigh. Hehehe ang saya.

After the meeting Rod and I went to Yellow Cab to eat pizza and then I went home to take a nap.

Green Hills with Gil

Yesterday, I accompanied Gil to Green Hills because he wanted to buy stuff for his room. We were having hard time looking for the stall that sells the lampshade that he's been itching for to buy. After a few minutes we finally saw it. It cost about P650 but he manage to get a bargain and bought it for P500 only. It's simple, nice to look at yet elegant. Nice taste Gil.